well im like depressed right now

life kinda sux

im not exactly sure y

well actually i know y

im confused mixed up and i can't stop thinking about it its like im addicted to this drug and its just so hard to pull away from and really if i told u wat it was it would be stupid but just like drugs their stupid its alway in the back of my mind ill think about it then ill just let it go for like maybe a few hours maybe less then ill feel this feeling again and i can't stand it and i thought this is it if ***** just says that ** *****  me then itll be over this confusion but its not ** confused me more and im still not sure wat to do so im thinking about it and everytime i do i get this horrible tingling feeling in my stomach this depressed relaxation though my neck and back and i can't just get angry about it to make it go away

make it go away......

i hurt someone i mean i hurt people before and im sry, but i wish that ** would put it behind *** cause ** says that its ok and that ** forgives me but i know that ** still blames me for hurting *** and now i think thats y ** doesn't **** me but i hope that ** forgives and forgets for real and see's that i truly am sry and that i made a mistake

maybe i should just forget altogether and go back to wat i was doing before cause i know thats wat started this is me going back and ******* to *** again maybe i should just avoid and forget or something anything??............

serioulsy though who r u sammie?? John??